Miserable At My Best

Having so much to say, so many thoughts invading my mind, desperately waiting to be heard but yet nothing's ever coming out right.

I have been feeling so downhearted lately and it seems like the week doesn't seem to get any better as the days go by. It's as if the universe is turning it's back on me. Why do I feel like everything is just so, wrong. Like nothing is ever going to be right anymore. Negative thoughts are taking over me and it's bringing my spirit down. My heart, my brain, they are all in a mess. I feel like a complete wreck. I can't think of what's best for me and this, obviously, sucks.

I've been wearing my heart on my sleeve and it's been singing the saddest of songs. I'm losing hope. It's as if, everyone around me doesn't have faith in me anymore and you know what's worst? I'm starting to no longer believe in myself too.

Right now, I'm on a mission to find myself, for I have been lost, wandering a little bit too far off from my track. It's time to rejuvenate my inner self.

A friend of mine, recently told me that I've been carrying the world upon my shoulders. As much as I hate to agree, I have to say, she's absolutely right. It got me thinking that I have allowed too many things that are out of my control get to me. I really should pull these worries off my shoulders, and just have fun. I yearn to play like a child. Dream. Hope. Believe. I realise that I haven't done any of these things recently.

I need to focus on being happy. I really should.