He Knows

I think all the emotions from the week caught up to me and I can conclude that this is just not my week. I was infuriated by the fact that I was behind schedule because I fell sick and it was painful having to put everything I had planned on hold. There was just so much to do; I started worrying about things not working out that I began to imagine all of the possible worst-case scenarios. I even allowed myself to think of taking steps for alternate solutions should one those dreary possibilities occur.

My head was just so messed up and halfway through the week, I quickly realised how I was spreading myself too thin. It was like an emotional winter has settled into my life – which would make sense if Malaysia was snowing. I then decided to let myself have a good cry over one phone call with my schatzi, Adam.

I was already yearning for the week to come to an end. 

So this morning when I woke up, I came across two things – a quote and a post – that were an eyeopener to me. "We complain about what we don't have and the difficulties we go through but how often do we truly show thankfulness for what we DO have?" Mufti Menk

And this blogpost from a lifestyle blogger, Vivy Yusof. 

A sudden realisation then hit me. I've been so worked up on myself that I have been neglecting the good around on me. My mind was clouding that one bright shining patch of light that I was holding onto that made me overlook on the little things in life that I'm blessed with – like waking up to my parents in my bed playing with my hair and asking me to hang out with them, having a special someone who cares about you, getting to live another day and it goes on. 

And just as it happens in nature, I reminded myself an emotional "spring" will come and I will flourish, god willing.