Writer's Block

It has been 627 days and 10 hours since I last published a post and today, I finally realise that I have been struggling with some type of creative slowdown. There were days when I had ideas clanging and rolling around in my brain putting my imagination in overactive mode but I just couldn’t commit to any of the ideas, and they all peter out. Unfortunate isn’t it? Having ideas constantly assaulting our brains, pacing rapidly in our heads; challenging our ability to pay full attention to any one thing.

Last October, I decided to give my blog a makeover as I was determined to start writing again. I ultimately took one week to explore and experiment with all kinds of template before making my final theme decision. I made sure to test out new features and played around with the widget toolkit because I wasn’t going to spend €16 for nothing! Everything has to be up to my liking and after making a couple of adjustments, I then configured the template. It is safe to say that I am quite pleased with my current blog layout teehee. 

I am a perfectionist. I want everything to be just right before I ever touch a keyboard or put pen to paper. Unhealthy, I know but this is a condition that I struggle with on a daily basis. It is a must for me to get anything at all – perfect in my head but never do – so I never begin and my ideas trickle. I felt like I don’t have a creative bone left in my body so I decided to throw in the towel after procrastinating one post which obviously worsen the blank page syndrome…until today. 

I found inspiration as I was running on a treadmill this morning. It seems that pursuing one small change at a time has been counterproductive so I figured that a change in strategy is all I need. I will keep exercising the creative part of my brain by staying productive instead of shoving my passion down the drain when I’m feeling discouraged. It is important for me to be in solitude to keep staying focused. I know that if I persevere, I’ll tap back into the flow of writing inshaAllah. I actually have another topic brewing in my head but as of now, I’m in a rush so I’ll have to end this post here. 

Feels good to be back.