Time is passing by so
quickly and it just hit me that I’ll be turning 20 soon before I know it. This
freaks me out because as I’m busy growing up, nothing changes the fact that my
parents are growing old too and I dislike it very much. Overly-attached
daughter, I know.
Looking back on 2013, I
have to say that it has taught me valuable life lessons. It was the year I
found myself on a path I never thought I’d travel. There were times when I have
felt that it wasn’t right for me, had I thought about it. But through the
intervention of fate and serendipity, I wound up going in a new direction.
Frightened, I was but grateful nonetheless.
I too spent a lot of time
multi-tasking, juggling and running around like a hamster on a wheel in the
last year. It was prostrating and I felt like I got nowhere for all of my
effort. I was beaten down – I kept pushing myself above my limits but I know it
was not good enough. I will never be good enough and I intend on doing
better this year, god willing.
2014 is here and I am going
to make adjustments in my life. I will dive forward into any pool of chance
instead of sinking myself helpless into what once was. We fall prey to the
illusion that there is always tomorrow while missing today. Therefore, I do not
wish to miss what has passed as it’ll only make me neglect what is now. Out with
the old and in with the new; this is not just a platitude to associate with the
beginning of the New Year. I need to free myself from old baggage, and usher in
a whole new outlook and way of doing things as well as making my life feel new
again for a happier and fruitful future.
I am going
to absorb whatever comes my way and learn to master the subtle cues that I’ve
been overlooking. I want to not wish and to just do and to live for today.
I want to
fall madly in love…with myself.
Happy New Year, lovelies ♥
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