Detach yourself from moments and emotions. Never allow your definition of self-worth be anything other than your position with Allah and let your relationship with Him be your only source of fulfillment. I was blessed with a gift from God but I became dependent on that particular gift. My heart and my mind became the property of something/someone else and I came to love them as I should only love Him. The gift took over my heart when it should have remained in my hands. I was in a constant state of instability – swinging from one extreme to another and not knowing why. My heart was not at ease.
I loved the gift I was blessed with a little bit more than I should have and soon enough I came to a realisation that which caused me the most pain was where my false attachment lie. I prayed really hard and prostrated before Him; making abundant supplications for Allah to show me signs of what was causing me distress. Alhamdulillah, Allah in His infinite mercy freed me by taking the gift away from me. It wasn't easy but He definitely made it bearable.
Through the loss of my gift, I regained focus of my priorities and I now know that He has replaced what was taken away from me with something far greater than anything I could ever imagine; nearness to Him. Alhamdulillah.
[3:8] Our Lord! make not our hearts to deviate after Thou hast guided us aright, and grant us from Thee mercy; surely Thou art the most liberal Giver.
Nonetheless, I pray for the gift I was once blessed with to always be under His care and protection and for Allah to return it back to me if it was truly meant for me, inshaAllah.
Indeed, Allah knows best.
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