Fayra x Flacko

♥ ♥ Quite possibly my favourite photo at the moment! ♥ ♥

  I barely have time to post regularly these days but I am able to spare some time for an update tonight. 

I had a thought recently. Being in the midst of a battle with someone important in your life who has wronged you can be quite difficult especially when you have been looking at this certain someone through rose-coloured glasses. I had others pointing out the things this particular individual has done wrong but I tend to always offer a defense. As painful as it is to admit this, I may have been looking through the eyes of love. I believe that one can never go wrong when setting an example of unconditional love because I know that prolonged anger will only hurt you even more. I have been forgiving but I too have realised that focusing too much on all the times this person has been there for me will only ruin my life. Dwelling in the past is clearly unhealthy but I guess that's how you know you really love someone; when you don't hate them for breaking your heart.

It is not easy being let down by someone whom you have always trusted implicitly and it is even worse when you never would have expected such a disappointment. But weren't we told to be mindful of Allah and to rely solely on Him and only Him? Humans invariably disappoint each other. It isn't always intentional, but it hurts nonetheless. And yet we still take for granted of the handhold that never breaks.

Despite all that has happened, I am a lot tougher now. I am in the process of transforming myself, the very same way a butterfly emerges from its cocoon to take on the big sky. I have learnt that just because I believe in justice does not mean I will be treated justly. Just because I'm kind to others does not necessarily mean others will be kind to me. My priority has changed now, it is best to keep myself under the wraps for the time being and to focus fully on my relationship with the Almighty. And if I were to ever find a pair of eyes that would want to commit, his deen will be my very main concern, inshaAllah.

"Choose a halal way and leave the haram way behind. When you choose the halal way, Allah will make a way for it to reach you."